Chapter 9: Attracted twenty thousand dollars
In the laboratory of experience in which my newly revealed relation to the Divine operation was to be tested , the first problem was a financial one. Her income was a stipulated one, quite enough for every day needs, but short to travel to England where Troward lived.
I wanted to go to him and study his philosophy.
To this end, I memorized and daily stated” My mind is a center of Divine operation , and Divine operation means expansion into something better than has gone before. ”
From the Edinberg Lectures , she had read something called the Law of Attraction, and in Chapter on ” Causes and Conditions” , she gleamed a vague idea of visualization. Every night before going to sleep, she made a mental picture of the needed and desired $20,000 which is what appeared to be the amount extra to make the trip to England. Twenty , $1000 bills counted over each night in her bedroom, and then the idea of more emphatically impressing my mind with the fact that this$20,000 dollars was for the purpose for a ticket to study with Mr. Troward. I saw myself every morning and evening, buying the ticket and being accepted as a student. I impressed on my mind ” My mind is the center of the Divine Operation ” and tried to keep it in the back of my consciousness all the time , with no thought as to how the money might be obtained. There were no thoughts to the way the money could reach me as I could not imagine where it might come from. I simply held the thought steady and let the powers of attraction fins its own way and means.
One day as walking in the street , taking deep breath exercises , the though” My mind is surely the center of Divine operation. If God fills all space , then God must be in my mind too. If I want this money to study to learn the truth of Life, then both the money and the truth will be hers. Though , I am unable to feel or see the physical manifestations of either. Still, ” I declared it must be mine ”
While these reflections were going in my mind , there seemed to come up from within me the thought ” I Am all the substance there is ” Then, from another channel in my brain came the answer” Of course , that’s it; everything must have the beginning in the mind.
The Idea must contain within itself the one and only primary substance there is, and this means money as well as everything else. Her mind accepted this idea and immediately the tension of mind and body became to relax.
There was this feeling of absolute certainty of being in touch with all the power Life has to give.
All though the thought of money, teacher, or even her own personality , vanished in the great joy which swept over her entire being. She walked on and on, with the feeling of joy steadily increasing and expanding until everything seemed aglow with replenished light. every person passed seemed illuminated. All consciousness of personality disappeared , and in its place there came that great and almost overwhelming sense of joy and contentment.
That night making the picture of the $20,000 it was with an entirely different aspect. On previous occasions , when making the picture , she had felt that she was waking to something within herself. This time there was no sensation of effort. She simply counted the money and then without consciousness of time there seemed to appear an avenue as to obtain it.
It at first took great effort not to get excited. It felt great being in touch with the supply. Troward cautions to keep the excitement of the mind in the first flush of realization of union with the Infinite supply , and to treat it as a perfectly natural result which had been reached through our demand.
This was even more difficult for her because the thought” all the substance there is I Am; I (idea) Am the beginning of all form, visible and invisible.
Just as soon as there appeared a circumstance which indicated the direction through which the $20 thousand might come, I not only made a supreme effort to regard the indicated direction calmly as the first sprout of a seed had sewn an absolute, but no stone unturned to follow up that direction thereby fulfilling my part. By doing so , one circumstance seemed naturally leading to the other , until step by step , the desired $20,000 was secured. To keep my mind poised and free from excitement was her greatest effort.
Following the advice of Troward was rewarding and brought concrete fruition. The study of mental science was continued on my own reading the Edinburg lecture showed ” To get good results we must properly understand our relationship to the great impersonal power we are using. It is intelligent and we are intelligent , and the two intelligent must cooperate.
We must not fly in the face of the Law expecting it to do FOR us what it can only do through us; and we must therefore use our intelligence with the knowledge that it is acting as the instrument of a greater intelligence. Because, we have this knowledge we may and should cease from all anxiety as to the final result.
In actual practice, we must first form the ideal conception of our object with the definite intension of impressing it upon our Universal mind. It is this intention that takes such thought out of the region of mere casual fancies , and then affirm that our knowledge of the Law is sufficient reason for a calm expectation of a corresponding result. therefore, all necessary conditions will come to us in due order.
We can then turn to the affairs of our daily life with the calm assurance that the initial conditions are either there already or will soon come into view. If we do not see then all at once, we can rest assure that the spiritual protégé is already in existence and wait till some circumstance s pointing in the desire direction begins to show itself.
It may be a very small circumstance , but it is the direction not the magnitude which needs to be taken into consideration. Assoon as we see it , we should consider it the sprouting seed in the Absolute and do calmly and without excitement , do whatever the circumstances require and then later on we shall see that this doing will turn to further circumstances in the same direction, until w e find conducted step by step , accomplished of the desired object. In this way, the understanding of the great Law of Supply will, by repeated experience , deliver us more and more completely out of the region of anxious thought.
Physical labor will reduce and bring us into a new world where the useful employment of all our powers , whether mental or physical will only be unfolding of our individual lines of its own nature.
A perpetual source of health and happiness , a sufficient inducement , surely to carefully study the laws governing the relationship of the individual and the Universal mind.
To her mind , then now, this quoted statement” My mind is a center of a Divine operation ” constitutes the only apparent means of attracting to herself the $20 thousand . Her constant endeavor to get into the spirit of these statements and to attract to herself this needed sum, took about 6 weeks. , at the end of which time her bank had the required 20, 000. this could be made into a long story giving details , but the facts , as already narrated will give you a definite idea of the magnetic conditions of her mind while the $20,000 was finding its way to her.
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